February 14, 2014,
Dear Pregnant Self,
I'm not even sure how to start this letter off, because in my mind I am still in shock and awe that we got pregnant. But with that being said, I am so very grateful to have had this experience and I hope experience it again.
Now that we approach the last few days, albeit only 36.5 weeks, almost 37, I feel the need to thank you for the time we have had! I have honestly felt my very best during this pregnancy! Right up until this point where I have been told my wheels are falling off my wagon. My blood pressure is no longer co-operating on medication. The doctor has told us baby is coming sooner than we thought. But with that being said, we are ready.
Selfishly though, I don't feel ready. I just want to hold on to this time being pregnant right up to the end. It took me 4 years to get here, and the last 36 weeks have gone quicker than I realized. I have embraced this changing body and loved every minute of it. The aches, the pains, the changes, the flu, broken bones, etc - its as if they weren't even that bad.
As excited as I am to meet this little peanut, I know that this time being pregnant could be my last, and despite being soo very grateful to experience this blessing, I now know even more what I could be missing. I know I cant live my life guessing my future, but I also know I am on borrowed time. And I know that because of my fertility issues, it has made this pregnancy all that more special.
We sailed through this pregnancy! No morning sickness, just a few nauseous days, my skin was a mess, but I was pregnant, it didn't matter, I reached my goal. We survived my Mom's stroke and recovery, pool installation, renovations, the flu at 20 weeks, blood pressure issues starting at 25 weeks, ankle fracture at 26 weeks, reflux like crazy, Christmas with a fractured ankle, another blood pressure scare at 32 weeks, and now again at 36 weeks. We have been growing a healthy baby all along
So with all of this being said, thank you for the last 36 weeks, I will be amazed with my own body for accomplishing this goal from here on in! Miracles really do happen and despite not being ready to let this time in my life go, that I have enjoyed to the fullest, through the good and bad, I am ready to meet my miracle!