It has been waay to long since we last talked. I miss you and I wish I could have phoned you up or even visited on the weekend. We could have made cookies together.
Grandma, I really needed you this weekend. It just wasn't the same without you. I was making YOUR chocolate chip cookies, with YOUR mix master and all of YOUR spatulas and mixing cups. I have NEVER made this recipe without you or your stuff. Although I had your material items and recipe, I was missing YOU more than ever. I may have at one point sat on the kitchen floor and cried my eyes out.
Remember how you always used to warn me about the spinner on the mix master, how you have to hold the bowl and your spatula or else the bowl will spin like crazy.... well I needed you to remind me of that, because on my first batch I ended up with cookie dough EVERYWHERE! Just like the good old times. I remembered to taste the dough as I went to make sure I had enough sugar and remembered to add that little touch as I went.
It is crazy that I have not made these cookies since we last made them together. I guess I didn't realize how hard it would be without you.
Grandma, I know you don't like it when I cry, but I suppose they were much needed tears. I remember at your funeral, when I got up to speak, you always used to tell me "Don't cry, be a big girl", well Grandma I made it through your funeral with minimal tears, but today, let me tell you I shed quite a few, but not because my sister hit me or was leaving me out, it was because I MISS YOU.
The cookies turned out great, they taste JUST like yours. Funny how I remember the taste of YOUR cookies, as if we were sitting in you kitchen (on Dufferin) counting down the time on your egg timer until we could try one! I didn't sneak too much cookie dough either, which is the weird part.. it felt like you were really with me on Saturday, because I still felt that someone was watching me as I snook the cookie dough, and couldn't help but to look around.
Well Grandma, I miss you, and I wish you were still here.