Reflection # 2

2.) I've learned- 

that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

This is another tough one! It can be viewed in sooo many different ways! So, we will explore a couple of them that I can relate to. I feel that this one is almost impossible to understand.

I care about animals like crazy and it honestly breaks my heart to see them suffer. You could not only break my heart, but rip it out when people are cruel to animals. I don't understand it. I physically and emotionally cannot wrap my mind around animal neglect and cruelty. Why is it that people make others step up to the plate for them, because they plain and simple do not care. Actually, it isn't just animals, it is babies, kids, elderly, etc. Humans/animals that have no say.

On a more personal level, with friendship, it can cause soo much tension. It is almost like having a one-sided friendship, where you are caring about someone, who wouldn't do the same for you. Similar to you can't help someone who does not want to be helped. I suppose this has come up a few times in life. For most of my friends, I would go to the moon and back for them, but the sad reality is that I don't know that some of them would do it for me. The fact of the matter is that each friendship shows it's true colors, you learn from these things, but overall you don't stop caring. Even after you have been hurt, you still somewhat care, but you might just be the only one who cares, because chances are that the person that hurt you whether it be intentional or not, they obviously don't care, at least not like they should, or you wouldn't have been hurt in the first place depending on what it is that hurt you.

For myself, I am an honest person, I am not going to lie to you. If you ask me a question, be prepared for the truth, whether you like it or not. I am not going to beat around the bush. I don't do this to hurt feelings, or because I do not care about how one might feel with the truth, I do this to help. Sometimes it might just do more harm than good and it leaves me stuck! I am only doing this because I care and obviously if you are struggling with something, you are struggling for a reason and maybe everyone else is afraid to tell you the truth. I am only telling you because I care. If you need to be mad at someone for being honest with you, have at it, be mad at me, but at least know that you are only mad at me for caring. I often question myself for being sooo honest. My mom always says "some people can't handle the truth" and I have come to realize that this is true. People are fragile beings, they, like myself can put on the tough face, but when it comes down to it, the little things hurt. I don't always want to be that person to cause "little hurt" or big hurt for that matter. I am trying to take a step back from honesty and by doing this I partially feel like I am letting people down, but if people want the honest truth about bigger things they are going to have to ask for it!

A lot of feelings are hurt with lack of care and yes, it seems pretty simple to fix, but at the same time, I would rather know that someone is being real and honest with me, then to pretend like they care.

(I don't know why the spacing is soo silly....)

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