If I Could Keep You Little

Clearly I'm suffering with some sort of shock that my baby is turning one in just a few short weeks. They warn you about the baby blues, but not about the fact that your baby will grow up way to fast and leave you wondering where the heck time went? There is no cure for this! Soo...

If I could keep you little, I would take back all those snuggles and hold you all day long, even though I was trying to teach you independence, alone time and giving you your own space. 

If I could keep you little, I would let you sleep in my bed a little more often, but instead of me sleeping, I would stare you down and admire each and every part of you. Your eye lashes, your little button nose, your sweet pouty lips, your tiny ears and your long fingers and I would never forget how perfectly little you are. 

If I could keep you little, I wouldn't have worried soo much about what others were telling me about your weight and I would have just trusted my instinct and enjoyed my time with you instead of stressing about if you were getting enough. 

If I could keep you little I would never ever forget just how tiny you were when you were born. I'm soo upset that I can hardly remember that time already! I remember our moments, but not your size! 

If I could keep you little I would cherish each and every little smile, even though you didn't know you were smiling. We were blessed with such a happy, smiley and easy baby. 

If I could keep you little, I would erase everytime I felt stressed because you wouldn't sleep and look at it as more time spent with you. I would hold you longer, dance with you longer and rock you longer. I have cherished each and every moment with you, including the challanging ones - not that there have been very many of those! 

Oh Noah, I hope that you will always know and feel how much I love you, because my words don't always express it enough. I feel like our time together so far has gone soo fast, yet it has been soo fun and exciting to watch you grow and develop. These days I feel like everything is happening even faster. You are knocking off milestones on a daily basis and seeking more and more independence and if I am being perfectly honest, I just want to hold you and cuddle you and keep you little. But I know you need to grow up, I'm just sad to see it happening soo fast, yet I am soo very proud of you!